My eyes over European skies
Are casting away.
I won’t be back this side of the pond
Until I change my mind again.
Which is the biggest difference
I have grown accustomed to overseas
The finality of things.
A match can be nil-nil and end
For an American I need a winner. And a loser
But here it’s a final decision. Done.
It’s not over for us
Til the bullets settle the dust
..Sweet the promise of darker seas below
I thank for the quiet and the undertow..
I don’t know why I let them bother me
Fidgety eyes feet faint smiles crooked teeth
They did nothing to you nothing screw me
But I let them into in two. In too
..I open my skin
Let the insects in
Open up the skies
and let free 1000 lies
I spill my seed..
On your corporate logos
your go lean team egos
-I cut the cord-
A big fuck you I let go
– the synergy lords –
I don’t why I let them bother me
Institutions of brutality
Greed wet net
Starched shirts gender free
I just want to play with bugs
In the mud
..I pull the
I put on some makeup and danced
a naked sock hop
To ziggy and Iggy and stellar pop rock
It occurs to me that blue eyeshadow has probably been here before.
For dessert I will threaten my health with cigarette smoke
And laugh at the ceiling from the floor
This morning I walked outside my hotel.
I had two choices; kill myself or go swimming.
I kept my clothes on, the ducks laughed at me. What a reason to live
I also like the sound of small planes as they fly overhead
Reflections in an airport window
A pointless song playing on the radio
All these people really no place to go
I count the heads and faces
All are from my past so many places
I recognize every one of them
Thought I left them behind. Last time.
What I fear most when I reach the end of the line
Is that all these dipshits will have gotten there first
And all the good ones are still in the hearse
Sitting by the lake there wasn’t even a ripple
I dont feel safe here anymore
One cloud in the sky.
As I waited for the sunset I counted
Minutes in denial
I walked myself home til sunrise
Its what I gave. To be
I’d kiss you if you were asleep.
So awake. So far from me